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The new me

I just want everyone to prepare themselves, I gained a little bit of weight. But it's all good cuz a big belly means a big wallet where I come from.

The next 2 weeks, insha Allah

Nobody is going to hear from me for the next weeks, insha Allah. This is why:

Anatomy: 68, 69, 70, 71, 72, 73, 74, 75, and all lab questions
Histo: 62, 63, 64, 65, 66, 67
Physio: 41, 42, 43, 44, 45, 46, 47, 48, 49
Biochem: 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, workshops 7 & 8, diet analysis
OMM: Plan out practical, study for written
ICM: Plan out practical, study for written
Human Behavio: 5 lectures

Let's estimate 2 hours/lecture to study, practical planning takes 6 hours, and written studying takes 6 hours. That means I have to squeeze in, bi idh nillah,, 102 hours of studying material for the first time, into next week. A week has 168 hours, minus 49 for sleep, 14 for other projects, 14 for transit time, and then 102 for studying material for the first time... that leaves us with negative 11.

The 1 week hour by hour count is from this Sunday at midnight till next Sunday at midnight. Which means insha Allah I will have 24 more hours to play with because I will have all day of Sunday, 7 of which will be lost to sleep, and another 4 to miscellaneous, leaving 13 hours. Aside from that extra 2 hours of safety, I will lose time to classes that I have to attend, and reviewing. But I am also hoping that I overestimated the study time for a lot of these things. My schedule for finals is:


Monday Feb 16: OMM Written
Wednesday Feb 18: OMM practical
Thursday Feb 19: ICM Practical
Monday Feb 23: Histo & Anatomy
Tuesday Feb 24: Human behavior
Wednesday Feb 25: Biochem
Thursday Feb 26: ICM Written
Friday Feb 27: Physiology

Pray for me.

On sleeping

I don't sleep to not feel tired. I'm always tired. I sleep to keep the hallucinations away.

Another nice quote

This was stolen frm one of YOU but since you don't check my bog often, you won't notice this anytime soon. Cheers.

Dreams are not those that you see at night after going to sleep. They are those that keep you from sleeping all night long.

War

Yesterday we had 2 exams, Anatomy and Histology back to back. We've done that before last quarter a few times and usually it wasn't too bad. What made it so bad this time was we had a biochemistry exam on Monday, so like all of last weekend we were doing biochem (which was brutal - my God...) so essentially those of us who are not the top 5% of the class who dont think and plan lightyears ahead had 3 nights to study for an anatomy and histology exam. Now after winter break I've been trying my best to develope my work and study ethic (despite it going against the title of this blog) by trying to focus and study at home in my little study room. I mean it worked for a few exams... i mean I passed... but for the biochem exam the results were catastrophic. So Monday after the exam I lay in my bed thinking about how life feels like it sucks (cuz in reality it doesn't suck Alhamdulillah) and how screwed I am for the next double header exam. Then I said ok.. rule #1.. study in the library. No buts, no ifs, juuussssst shut up and go to the library to do any amount of studying. I looked at the material that was going to be covered and I said I basicaly need to cover 7-8 pages a day and I should be able to survive. So that Monday night I got to the library at 6 pm and grinded till midnight until I finished my quota for the night. I was feeling pretty good.

The next day I got off class at 2 and man I felt like a millionaire cuz I had 2 until midnight of time to spend at the library! So I study and study and then around 4 I start taking breaks... then at 5 I start losing the momentum... then at 6 I go out to play basketball.. and at 7 I want to drop out of school. From 7 - 10 I was out of it (Sadaf was at her master's class at this time) and when I finally got back to the library and got my head together it was 10 oclock and only churned out 2 hours. So I turned a potentially 10 hour work day into 5 hours. I went from potentially being ahead of schedule to grossly behind schedule.

To make a long story short, Wednesday I didn't get done with going over all the material for a first time until around 11 PM. Going over material once essentially means you don't know Jack.

The library was a war zone, and every single one of us was preparing for war. The trashcans were stacked with starbucks cups and energy drinks and ppl were in every chair and desk and sofa and every study room and every reserve book and model was checked out and good God it was insane. The boundaries between night and day dissappeared. Fun times.. fun times...

After the exam I seriously wanted to kill myself. Not because I was depressed or because I felt like crap or because of any emotional issues. It just seemed like the right thing to do at the time. I slaved away for so long just for an exam with 60 questions, a large chunk of which I was unsure about.. I frequently feel like I am not good at anything in life, so I thought I should do humanity a favor and just end it now.

Well I just got the results back and Alhamdulillah I passed both exams, and I did better than I thought I would do in Histology, which is perfect because I needed to do better in Histo to pull that grade up. So the moral of the story is, if you feel like you failed an exam and you want to kill yourself; don't. Wait till you get the results and make sure you failed first before you do it.

And remember all that crap I said about not asking people for dua? Disregard it and make dua for me. Thanks.

Quick Update

I had an exam yesterday, will have 2 exams on Thursday, and another one on Monday. After that will be finals week. I am struggling in 2 classes (Histology and Biochemistry) so please make dua for me). Finals week will be rough - an exam every day. I know all you high school and college cats are like thats normal... but this is a whole different animal. I am not going to call anybody anymore for duas, I am trying to reach a level where I study so much I actually feel like I got this under control and a dua before my exam will suffice. The main reason why people call others and beg for duas is because they are not as prepared as they should be (which is true in my case), and I don't want to be that person. Who does the nonmuslim who has 95% and above averages in every single class call up before exams and ask them to make for duas? a Muslim should be prepared... and then make dua.

Or maybe I'm wrong. O well.

Whoever comes to my house the night of the 27th insha Allah (the night me and Sadaf fly back) they will be able to see an amazing display of human performance.

Whats new in everyone else's life? Hey I need an effing working copy of age of empires with the conquerors expansion with a crack or a patch. I downloaded like 4 copies and I had to use an iso thing to even open the file and I was able to install it to my comp and everything, but everytime I try to run the program it says I need to insert the CD. I am going to delete everything I have and rely on marin or raqib to get me a working copy. I need to put it on everyones computer so that we could hav a massive 8 way age of empires showdown. Get to it you guys stat